Lilianna was my 6 week old cousin. The reason why I didn't post this blog earlier is because I was never online. The first time I went to see her, she was so small and light. I wouldn't let my mom or Shannon (Lili's mom) take her back. She opened her eyes at me, and even smiled a little. I knew then I was going to help her grow up and drive her to the mall when I got my license, but I didn't know that my first time seeing her would be my last.
Then the news came. After they took Lili home, she stopped breathing and became brain dead. They did not get her to the hospital fast enough. They put her on a breathing machine, but that was the only thing keeping her alive. She also had a spinal cord disease that I cannot remember the name of. I prayed every night, hoping that the doctor's would find some way to heal her, but they couldn't. One night, everyone said thier goodbyes and held her hand as they removed the machine. Making me think about this time, makes me cry. I cannot think about all the good times that I had wanted to spend with her. I could not go to her memorial service or funeral because my parents said it would be too hard seeing the small casket. I understood completely. I miss her so much.
Her special bug was a ladybug, so everytime my family sees a ladybug I say, "Lilianna sent it." I love u sweetheart. -Heather-
By @DarkLove
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