damn getting misgendered feels the fucking worst, i have never wanted to just simply disapear more in my life than when i get misgendered.. honestly thats why i dont talk to my family and hide in my room all day. It makes me feel fucking sick to my stomach and i feel like it might turn into a panic attack if i'm in the right mood. In my head i am 100% male and honestly forget that not everybody sees me that way, until i get misgendered, then i remember that I'm the only one who sees me as a boy. Normally it feels like my gravity is the same as the moon's, but when i get misgendered i get reminded that i'm not on the god damn moon and i get crushed under earths gravity and it makes me feel fucking terrible. my parents know who i am but it seems they refuse to aknowledge my pain until they can physically see it on my body. When i told my mom i was trans, she cried and hugged me, but i didnt cry or hug back. she said how terrible it must feel to not belong in your body. After that, she didnt do a fucking thing to seem like she cared about my pain. She says she loves me but she never says she accepts me and sees me for who i am. Its funny how the words, "I love you" can hurt just as much as, "I hate you." Its funny how a hug can hurt just as much as a slap. When i was 12 and i hadnt come out yet, the highlight of my childhood would've been playing minecraft with my sister or wii sports or some shit. Now, the highlight of my childhood was how it felt like my parents looked at me with love in their eyes, not pity. I dont need your fucking pity, I need your fucking support.