The day was finally here. I was so nervous...I couldn't let my mom see how nervous I was, or she'd be suspicious. It had been 2 weeks since that talk in our restaurant, & Anaiyah's support had been detrimental to how far I'd come. Much furthur then I would have by myself. I was still terrified at the thought of being a lesbian, & the idea of my PARENTS ever knowing? Yea, we won't go there...I know that if they ever DO know, I won't have a home with them any more. I'm not ready to be homeless. I haven't told Anaiyah any of that. Tonight we're seeing a movie. I guess it's a date, if you want to refer to it as such. I still don't know if I'm comfortable admitting that I'm falling for another girl. I know I said I have come far, but it HAS been only 2 weeks.
I met her at the entrance of our restaurant, where she picked me up in a fancy navy blue car. She got out, opened the door for me, & placed my crutches in the back seat for me, she then shocked me by handing me a single red rose...ok so this was definitely a date.
As we pulled up to the restaurant, I noticed it was a very expensive italian restaurant. I'd never been there, but I'd always dreamed of going, not many people knew that. We talked throughout dinner, which was amazing & the strawberry-chocolate cheesecake we ordered for desert was just as good.
On the way home, we stopped at the beach lookout to talk more. I never expected things to go in the direction that they did. I never expected to do ANYTHING more then just talk to her, but after sitting there for roughly 15 minutes talking, we sat silent for a moment, then out of nowhere, she kissed me. I couldn't help but return her kiss.
When the kiss ended, I looked her in the eyes & kissed her again, this time making sure the kiss lasted longer then a few seconds. There was no nervousness about how I felt at that moment.
That night at home, thinking about how much I loved Anaiyah, I fell asleep smiling for the first time in a very long time.