its been 5 months since the death of jessica, and ever since then ive noticed something.
i realized that when i said i liked something and someone near me said, "oh i hate that" i'd make up an lazy excuse and make it seem like i really didnt like that something.
that bothered me a little. so for a while i've been quietly sreaching(sp?) for myself.
i offten asked myself questions like;
why am i here?
how am i supposed to act?
how am i supposed to feel?
what is my purpose?
and then it hit me.. i dont have to be here nor there, i dont have to be happy nor sad. im the middle.
im not not the stars or the moon. im the space in between. im not peanutbutter or jelly. im the bread.
i am normal. im am the middle.

i dont do drugs and i dont get perfect grades.i dont live on the street and im not rich. im not happy and im not sad.
i never spelled right and i never used proper grammer. im not goood at it but im not bad either.

i am a normal teenage girl that deals with normal problems;
abuse love
family ...
death

but because of each of these exprinces, i am who i am. i am haley anne [blocked] . and i dont care what you think. cause im me and your you.