Have you ever cryer so hard you felt dizzy?
Have you ever cried so hard you felt sick?
Standing in the darkness crying, whipping over you I'm talking to a old friend. He made me promise before and I couldnt do it. Now he wanted it again. He waited me to sware I would never hurt myself again. I'm not big on promises, but I made it hearing what he would do if I didn't. He was going to call the cops. I hung up later calling another friend, this one realy helped. I was feeling better. I got cleaned up and sat down. Standing in the dark, dark house all alone and seeing those flashing lights scared me to death. I had thought they went past the house. There were two rings of the bell and I went stiff. The came around and knocked on the window with something hard. I freaked and knew he had seen me. I opened the door scared still and augment. He told me someone had called in worried I was going to hurt myself, I cursed in my head at adam. If I didn't have trust from him what did I have? Nothing. They made me show them my wrists abd reveal my scars. They called my parents as I sobed hysterically. When my dad came he talked to the cops. My mom ran to me. All I could say was, "please tell me this is a realy bad dream" but it wasn't. I was crying so hard I was dizzy and not breathig right. They questioned me and opened up. At least one was nice. The other asked I I was on drugs when I said I was dizzy... Ha, kinda wanted to scream at him. When my little brother got home, I could even look at him. Now I need to see a therapist. FML. I guess it's for the best that I no longer need to hide myself. But things will change, I'm already trusted less I can tell.