I often find myself wondering wether the guy I like is oblivious to what I'm saying to him or just afraid to commit.
Like right now (or at least the past few months). I've been flirting and dropping hints and pretty much doing everything I know how to. This isn't one-sided either. He flirts back (in fact his flirting was what made me REALLY notice him) and a couple weeks ago he said he only ever talks about himself when he's nervous (by now, I know a fair deal about his family). Honestly, I'm not the girl who asks guys out. I'm the girl who smiles and gives advice and keeps his (or her) secrets and generally keeps him happy.
This guy, let's call him 'Rick' because it's short and nowhere close to his real name, has voiced some fears about being in a relationship. These range from 'not good enough' to just 'not ready.' Rick seems like a nice guy but some things he's said just scream 'issues.' I would know. He's showing signs of depression. This goes from just not happy and irritated, sometimes for no reason, to some past suicidal tendencies. I know where he's at. I get it. Here you may be wondering why this has anything to with Rick flirting with me. He's said, on more than one occasion: 'I trust you' and 'I think the only two people who actually listen to what I say are you and my cat. And my cat hates me.' This is kind of a big deal for people like us. It may not seem like it but... It is what it is.
He's also mentioned being unable to find the books I was reading when we first met. (Werewolves. We had an indepth discussion. I had a boyfriend.) He mentioned this a few weeks after we'd talked and, even though he said he was going to read it I hadn't believed him. I didn't even really know him then. He asked what my favorite book is and, after I explained what its about, asked if our school library has it. With a positive answer he's going to read it. Even though its old and a really slow starter.
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