This world where no one understands me, calls me childish names, and ridicules me.
But there is no magical world i could ecscape to, and meet my prince charming, and live in a magnificent castle.
Places like tht, unfortantly, exist only in the fables your mother read to you as you were a little child.
This world tht i live upon seems to consist of nothing but hatred, lust, violence, pain, and depression.
What kind of world is this were no one can get along, anymore.
I keep thinking to my self tht things will clear up, and sometimes they do, but when they do something comes along and ruins the moment.
As i sit here and write this i wonder what will like be like?
I can only imagine how bad my situations will become.
The worce things amplify the harder i will have to become to be able to woth hold all of the stress.
Sometimes i think there will be no one there for me when i get older.
no one who i can share how i feel with.
no onewho can truly understand me, and someone who i can trust completly, with out exceptions.
i hope i would be able to find tht one person who will show me there is an end to this unforgiving tunnel.
I hope there is a person out there who will make me happy for the rest of my life.
someone who i can actually depend upon to keep my secrets, secret.
some one who i want to spend the rest of my life with. tht special person who wants me for me, and who will not take advantage of wht i have to offer.
But then again sometimes i wish i could just disapear.
I dont like the thought of leaving my life behind, keavung my loved ones to deal with my after math, as if i were a tornado.
I plan to stay here and bare thro the tenacitys of life, with the support of others.
I only wish they could read this and fathom how much i need their comfert and support.
i wish they could understand how the drama they create, just makes things worce.
I mustnt let them bring me down