When I finally feel like I'm worth something I wake up.
My heart is dropped into a dark hole and I wake up from this dream of eccstacy.
In the dark I cry silent tears for no one to hear.
No one. That's me.
I wasn't good enough. Nor will I be.
I look down and see the hands of someone worth nothing.
I see the reflection of a nobody and feel the emotions of someone who doesn't matter.
When people see me they don't really, I'm just another shadow on the wall.
I pass the things I thought I knew. When I was ignorant.
I take each day and drown it.
Why should time be any better than the person?
No future to see because I've been blinded.
I walk this lonely road and sit out this during the games.
What is there to win if it only gives me something to lose?
I regret even trying. I didn't have it and that's the way it should have stayed.
Now it's gone and he doesn't care.
There's no reason to keep living, just leave me here to die.