Close my eyes,
clench my teeth.
Ignore the pain,
of devastating news.

Death reappears every now and then,
makes himself apparent till the end.
You go willingly, why bother to run?
I'm miserable here without you.

If she wouldn't have taken me back,
my life would have been different.
Just one more death was all it took,
but she was there for me.

Depression I have it,
now that my you are gone.
Is there anyone out there,
to be of help to me?

I've done things,
hurt myself and others.
Let down the ones I love,
they're all dissapointed, as am I.

I wish to take it all back,
everynight I die a little more.
Everyone I love is gone,
no one will walk through my door.

I'm alone now, forever,
no one misses me.
I wouldn't miss me either,
if I happened to be them.

I regret that night the car smashed,
it took you far from me.
I a distraction, couldn't shut up,
you were the only one to help me.

I took the wheel and spun it fast,
into the ditch we went.
The blood slowed slow,
from your cold lifeless head.

I told the cops it was me,
they put me in the back seat.
At least in here,
I can hurt no more.

I dream at night,
of what I've done.
Wish that I were her, but I'm not,
for that I must pay a price.

I'm in bed now,
the bunk-bed is nice and hard.
Ten more years till I am out,
each day my spirit fades.

One day when I am finally out,
go back to where it went down.
Close my eyes,
as the rain pounds my face.

Tears flow faster,
like a dam let loose.
I sit, cry, wish I could die,
it won't happen when I want it to.

I get up, soaking wet,
look one last time at the cross.
Her name in violet writing,
I close my eyes and turn away.

Walk down the empty street,
know that nothing good will come.
I try not to drag my feet,
know that my life is done.