So I am a fairly proud person. People around me seem to think I'm some kind of genius or something, and I have come hate letting them down. People always want to look up to me as a role model for some reason. But I'm really no better than anyone else. I might even be worse. For years my friends and family thought I was amazing at math simply because I could do arithmetic in my head like nobody's business. But that's simple stuff. Ask me to find the dirivative (however it's spelt) of something and I am totally hopeless.

Now fast forward a few years. Here I am in university, and I'm failing introductory calculus. That's the most basic Calc class. If I withdraw from the class at this point, I won't suffer an academic penalty, but I will still lose the nine hundred dollars I spent on the course.

You have no idea how difficult it is to let your parents down like that. At least, I thought I had. Turned out they were proud that I had enough sense to drop it before the marks would be a problem.


So anyways, my point in all this is the following: It takes a bigger person to admit weakness than to be try to be strong when they're not.