I'm in a shitty mood. Well, really, I've been in a shitty mood. It's called depression. Never-ending shitty mood.
And you know me, I don't like complaining about my life. So many people have it worse than me. I should be thankful for what I have. Some people have it worse...
Idk... I gotta vent.
So, everything was beautiful and fine and just great. Once my sister, A, left for college, everything went to shit. My parents started fighting and I was alone.
My parents divorced. I was broken and sad.
Then they got back together. I was delighted and thrilled and Then they divorced. I didn't cry when they told me. I expected it.
Then they got back together. I cried. But I slowly trusted them again.
Then they divorced. I cried. Hard. For a while. It sucked. But guess what?
They got back together. Again. They still don't have my trust.And no, I'm not exaggerating. They actually did this that many times.
Oh, but it gets worse.
I was born in Wyoming. When I was 3, I moved to Nevada (And for you non-Nevadians, it's Nuh-vA-duh) My mom promised me that we would stay in Nevada until I went to college, because all of my friends are here.
A was in Massachusetts for college. She missed us so she decided she would move to a college 8 hours away from us. Because of this, my dad decided that he would most likely move to where she was.
Fast forward to the beginning of March, this year (2017). My mom picks me up from school.
Mom: "What would make you happy?"
"(Bitch nothing at this point) If everyone got along"
M:"What if we moved closer"
"UHHH NO."
M:"Why not?"
"Literally all my friends are here!"
M: "Alright."
-later-
M: "You wouldn't, like, be devastated, would you?"
"Umm yes???"
M:"Why?"
"BECAUSE ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE HERE (fucking listen to me!)"
-Ten minutes later-
M "We're moving to California"
So ya, I feel shitty. I have depression. I have suicidal thoughts. The only things making me laugh anymore is Youtube and my friends that I'll have to leave soon. If I'm gone for a while, I probably didn't kill myself, it just takes a lot to go socialize instead of sitting and watching youtube. I'll try to be on once a week. We'll see. See ya.
-Rainbow
And some of my friends are just being so fucking stupid lately and god it sucks
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