i want to find myself
hah
i don't really know if i will
i'm scared
i'm lost in my own mind
i can't figure myself out

i keep losing control
i keep changing my mind
i can't stay the same
for even one night

it's driving me crazy
i keep judging myself
i am so confused
i feel so two-faced

i'm feelin' optimistic
i'm ok
i'm GOOD
i've been better
i dunno-- what do you think, hm?

Don't laugh.
Don't cry.
Be quiet.
Do this, not that.

Why are you so serious?
Why do you act like some emotionless robot?
Why are you so quiet?
Why do you keep doing this?

HEY
maybe you should shut up for once
and let me be my own self
oh wait
HAH
i don't even know how to be my own self

maybe my own self it's hidden
because right now i'm just a piece of paper that's been folded to meet everyone's perfect expectations
i mean
it's not like you hate me now, do you?

'course not
cos i'm just a people pleaser
but it's not like i'm forced to do all this
i just do it because it's easy

but is it myself?
is this what i'm supposed to be?
am i really who i seem to be?
i don't know
i WANT to know

HOW DO I FIND OUT
HOW DO I BECOME MYSELF
HOW DO I--

Oh, shut up.
You've got everything you need in life and more.
Yet you still complain.
Gosh, look at that, you little traitor.
Telling everyone your weaknesses.
That's how they get you, you know.
You don't know what it's like out there.

WELL YEAH BECAUSE YOU DON'T LET ME SEE WHAT IT'S LIKE OUT THERE

Oh man, look at this.
Now you're making me seem like the bad guy.

Hey. Maybe you should grow up.
You're complaining about nothing.
Have you seen the pain I've been through?
This, that you're going through-- it's nothing compared to that.
Mature yourself.
You act like a child.
You know better than this.

sorry
i'll do better
forget it
pretend i never said anything

alright?
i'm ok
i promise
just
i'm just weird at night haha

goodnight 3