Sometimes I feel like I want to die
Sometimes I feel like I want to live
Sometimes I feel like I can fly
Sometimes I take more than I can give

Life is confusing
But I thank God above
for graciously giving
me, the ability to love

We have made it together
For quite a few years
Its been me and you forever
ignoring the pain and the fear

But now its catching up
All the fear and pain we hid
All because we grew up
and didn't know that we did

Now things are different
Its hard to stay true
Oh how things were different
When I first met you

You've made me laugh
You've made me cry
You are my other half
You make me fly

But the times have changed
And so have we
The memories we've saved
are slipping free

We live in fear now
We live in secrecy
We live scared of how
They could separate you and me

You say you're letting go
Of the feelings you have for me
You say its to lessen the blow
But I know you still love me

I remember you each day
Picture us back on that beach
Watching the waves spray
With you sitting in arm's reach

I remember the breeze
Making your hair flow
Sitting next to those trees
I wish we never had to go

I can still see you back then
I was just staring at you
Knowing I was the luckiest of all men
looking into those eyes of Blue

But now its like you've given up
You say I don't deserve you
You say others measure up
And then you list a few

But all these years
I thought you knew
I thought I made it clear
That I love only you

You still love me
But you hide it well
Although a bit I can see
When we say our farewells

I miss you more than anything
I just want to see your face
I want the joy and the laughter you bring
When we're in the same place

I could never express all my feelings for you
This thing that we call love
I only wish that I knew
When our time allowed is up

But I know that you love me
So know that I love you
And through this poem the world may see
I love the girl with eyes of Blue

JH 2019®

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All that is written here is true. All those are real memories. She is a real person and I love her with all my heart. I am not able to make any contact with her right now, so out of my sorrow, I decided to write this for her.

If you ever read this. Just know that nothing could ever describe the loneliness I am experiencing without you. I am counting the days untill I will see you again. As I write this it is 68 more days. I love you. TTYL!