I hold the knife in my hands
In contact with me
I touch with the blade
But my head wants me to do it harder

My head betraying me and my body
As the blood trickles down
But my head brings me down with it
As I laugh sickly

They want me better
But I can't even agree
As my head is controlling me
And I say I'm fine

Hiding the scars under my sleeve
And more hidden in my pockets
You try to comfort me
But i fear for you

If you see it you'll hate me
You will despise us
As they are as much me as me now
I can't cut them off

And If you don't hate
You'll love instead
Which is more dangerous
For all who love me are dead

I choke as you hug me
I bleed when comforted
But as I want help so badly
They just try to cut me again

So I wake up bleeding
It is part of my life
I need you to help me
But I cannot share my strife

I have close friends
I know they wish me well
But falling stars aren't seen
In the fires of hell