Forget It

Some like to remember,
But I like to forget;
Cause that's my best chance,
And that's my best bet,
To somehow survive this;
And yet...

I feel like it's crashing,
Falling apart;
My world crumbles in slow motions,
The smoke clouds my heart.
I have a deadly assurance 
That this is the start

Of tears like a rainstorm,
Breaths like a hurricane;
I'm sorry your suffering,
Trust me, it's myself I blame;
It's cuts through my soul
Just to hear you say my name. 

But memories, they torture me;
Replay a thousand more times. 
And it's not like they sting,
They're sickly sweet, they cloud my mind. 
Like a poison in disguise,
that if I consume, will make me blind,

Make me paralyzed,
Make me deaf
Oh, how hard I try
To utterly forget!
But when you let go of your past
You have practically nothing left. 

Reminiscence is fatal,
And my mind I'd like to loose;
I want to destroy it altogether,
Because maybe when I do,
I can start completely over
Without the memories of you.