I was an ordinary young girl infatuated with the thought of love. I wanted the type of love you see in the movies. Once I thought "I had it" no one can interfere with it. When I love I love hard. But with loving hard you also fall hard. And I unfortunately had to learn that the hard way.                         
                I learned that not everything is what it seems and that the concept of love can eventually blind you. When your intuition tells you that something is not right do not fight it. Be wise and listen. Because when you do not face the truth you now live your life based on lies. Those that are close to you will try to warn you that what you see is not what they see. Thier purpose is not to  attack but to simply bring you back to reality.
                 When you love someone you do not cause harm to them. Whether it be physical or emotional. Love and hurt shall never be cordial. Your  happiness shall never be comprised. Love is not suppose to be sad. Never negotiate on love. Know who your loving and know the love that you deserve.
         Deception of a person can fool the mind. Because deception can make us believe that we are loving a person who never existed. When reality sets in and we get a dimse of the false hope and lies then we become trapped. Trapped in the imagination you created. Its like you want to hold on to the fantasy but the fanasty you fought for was never reality. Love was never in thier agenda. It was always a show. A show based on deception.
The feeling of pain is constantly aching you. The person you once was is no longer there.It is hidden beneath of all the betrayal. You allowed yourself to be in a pattern of abuse. And when you unintentionally allowed the pattern of abuse then you overall lost who you are as a person. Because the person you once was had respect from within.
Their will be a day when you had enough. And this day shall change your life forever. You shall be brave and realize that you were just a girl looking for love. And what you received was not the love you once saw in movies. You learned a lesson on not to be naive. You learned that love takes time. If the love does not feel right then it is not right. Never lose who you are. Because if you lose who you are then how do you expect for someone to truly love you if you don't know "you". Always respect yourself and know what's right for you. Don't ever allow someone to hurt you. Because your soul is precious; a precious treasure ..



***I don't know what to really call this to be honest. Not sure if it's a poem or just a life lesson I'm sharing with people. I wrote this today because this is how I felt. This is an experience of myself thinking I found love because I wanted the feeling of love and to share it with someone who I thought was special but I ended it up being in a toxic relationship that ended to abuse .Overall in this relationship I lost who I really was and began to become depressed instead of happy. If I would of listen to my intuition and close friends and family then I would of saved myself a lot of heartache.Hope at least someone today can learn from my mistakes..