Holding my head with my trembling hands
Are these tears making me less of a man?
Up in the clouds not preparing to land
But this is life there's nothing off brand
Smile on my face saying nothing to hide
But gun in my pocket, cocked, ready to find
Crying to myself, am I wasting my time
But no one hears me I'm losing my mind
Pushed into insanity
Lost my humanity
Telling me to get some help
They offered, I went to hell
Into pain and blood I fell
Begging for mercy oh well
I don't even remember my name
Don't approach me, I'm insane
They broke me and my bleeding heart
he blamed me now, I'm torn apart
I took my pain and turned it into art
Cut my losses and made a re-start
Pushed into insanity
Lost my humanity
Asking me to get some help
They offered, I went to hell
Into pain and blood I fell
Beg for mercy From me? oh well
Now I do things inhumane
Don't approach me, I'm insane
Well, although I'm not around here much anymore (due entirely to RL circumstances beyond my control), feel free to reach out to me if you need someone to talk to about this stuff.
Hey,
I know you probably have no clue who I am, but thats okay. This is an amazing poem btw. It really expressed some of the words I couldnt seem to find. Hold on. If not for yourself, do it for me, your, family, your friends or even Jaeyun (yes ik TOO) You aren't insane, although it may feel that way, you are just struggling. It does get better, I'm living proof. I still struggle more than i'd like, but life is looking up, just as it will for you too. If you ever wanna talk my PMs are always open. I got ur back even if nobody else does stay strong ;
JaeyunTheNut
01 Mar 2021 17:16
In reply to heaven.is.a.joke
Thank you dear, it means quite a lot to me that someone cares. And I hope you are well, and that your struggles will cease in the future.