ok so this is just a place for me to vent and talk about my feelings. i know barely anyone will see this so im not that woried tbh. if you are reading this thanks i guess, ill note down something everytime i feel a certain way. The dates are from the latest (top) fo the oldest (bottom) dates. Enjoy.
27/5/25
my grandads back from hospital, hes doing a bit shaky but hopefully he'll get through it. at least most of the stress is over. its half term break, so i get to relax more. ignoring the gcse exams that i am supposed to study and revise for next week or two. im considering quitting paint, or taking a break for a couple dozen months, it just feels like no one cares anymore,
god please someone notice me, irl and on paint.
22/05/25
i havent updated in ages,ive been dealing with a lot... my grandad had a heart attack, god i hope hes ok i havent seen or had news about it for ages. i wish i had someone to talk to about this stuff,, but i dont... i just want these thoughts to "get out of my head". i need something to put my mind off this. i wish i could drink alcohol. goodbye.
14/05/25
my birthday yay, todays been ok and my exams went alright i think. my birthday hasnt been that good, i dont feel as happy as i should. i went to an all you can eat which was fun, i just want to be happy. at leas tim not stressed about exams till june the 6th, whaever. im gonna drink bye
13/05/25
did my exam, i think i did alright. dad shouted at me for no reason. my birthday tomorrow. i have a speech i havent memorized the speech for. i just wanna go to sleep and not wake up bro. this school sucks. i hate everyone in this stupid ****ing school
11/5/25
I have an English GCSE tomorrow and i feel kinda stressed cus of it. I woke up this morning and i had a dream where i ran away from home and my dad caught me, kidnapped me and locked me up, pretty accurate if im being honest. I hate it here so much i cant wait to run away or move out at 16, only gotta wait 3 days and 12 months. I hope someone remembers my birthday... i have an exam on the same day too... sigh
